LIBERTATE

It sounds awfull! But there are mothers and mothers , in some cases it is a deliverance, of something that was wrong right from the beginning!
Mothers that have their child as an accessory to be part of their success, mothers that have children cause it was what was expected from them ,getting married and have children.
But sometimes it was wrong from the beginning.Receiving smacks and punishment for the smallest of things, not only having to be good at school, but having to be the best,behaving like a model little girl should behave , obediency being the key word.
Obediency in your teenager years as well.This woman that all your life preached you how you should behave ,she wished to be you somehow seeing your life not as a continuation of hers but how her life should have been .She preached you over and over.Then you discover when you are 18 that she wants to divorce your daddy.You discover that she had been cheating on him several times.But it was also cheating on you , all those lies ,pretending to be something, this Madam very respectful,very proper ,when in fact she was just looking for the man that could give her this life she wanted . A life of luxury that your father despite working like a slave all week as a simple lorry driver that goes the entire week away, could not give her.
And never she says sorry! Not even comrehend what she haas done.
She makes you choose,her or your father, you are still under the choc,she is your mother after all , you have been brainwashed for so long that this all story breaks you , you cant choose.You think that it will not be respectful to do so, in order to escape to this and remain neutral you do just that,you run away to another country.
Saying goodbye to France.Aurevoir!!!
This mother will not forgive her in her eyes you are either with her either against her it doesn't matter even if its your own flesh and blood.
6 years this mother will not speak , despite cards letters that you send to her.
In 6 years you have become this career girl in the Big London.
In 6 years she forbides your little sister to get in contact with you ,she is only 12.
6 years then she learnes you are doing more then well, and your sister ....well she is now nearly the same age as you were when you left, and more she is not an obedient teenager.
so Suprise suprise , after a long abscence of 6 years she gets in contact. You are speaking terms and your little sister is sent to live with you.
5 years she will live with you, but then after 5 fantasting years with a strong sisterhood envied by your own mother , you fell ill.
and this relationship of convenience with her breaks.
You dont fit the bill no longer of this daughter that has made it.She still doesn't get it!!! she still has not realise that she has a free spirit in front of her.
She likes to play this martyr with her entourage , she uses your illness to get the sympathy of others, but you dont want to fit this bill.
No because ,when thing she forgets , the illness doen't carry you , You carry the illness.
Ingratitude of the 5 years you were the mummy's role to your sister, ingratitude, when she convince your own sister to go back to France with her.Accusing you of being selfish,
To this all breaks, and explodes, and the past reimmurge.
what you never told her.
Her cheating , her lies, her attitude.
Bottom line if she would not have been your mother , you would not have ever spoke to a person like her. As a human being you dont like her at all.And as a mother she sucked too.
Never no one had dared to tell her those truth...she wont forgive this ever. "How dare could she have spoken to her that way!!"
This mother has alredy buried this child, with a bit of luck she will go soon !!and she can try to salvage some relationship with her younger sister,and try to mould this one more influencable into what she wants!!
As for the older one a weight as been lifted of this dictatorial woman in her life, that the only reason she support for so long was because society tells you that you have to love your mother.
She is free of this burden, having to ....
No, she doesn't have to , you either do either you dont.
I as far as I can remember , never did , I only feared.
Now I am free, I am my own entity.
That's LIBERTATE.

When you suffer from something as stupid as MS ,that even doctors cant explain, cant tell you the direction it will take,cant cure, you only have one salvation libertare your mind.
Young, and you are stolen from a life. The life maybe idioting of an independent city girl, that has been ruled by the wrong boyfriend that lives you when he discovers that you have the chances of ending up in a wheelchair,ruled by work in big companies where everything is so superficial it makes you sick, life of going out and be the mysterious party girl.
Until then ,you were the beautiful girl majority of guys wanted to get into the panties.
A tempered clever latin girl with a french accent to top it all.
But suddenly when they learned that you had this also mysterious illness,not only they pity you, but they go away from you, cause you remind them that tomorrow can be bleak for them as well.
Only they forget!
you are still the same only you walk funny sometimes , and then you better be in the wheelchair for long distance.
To all those that have abandon in that moment I say "F*** YOU"

You aint LIBERTATE : I am !!!!
And I wouldn't change my place for yours, cause I rather keep my free spirit, the one that I always had even before MS.
It is not from me that you should have run , but from yourselves!
But that is it: you are prisoners of your minds, and what society has inflicted upon you.
Shame on you !!!

YOU!!you Mum, you Sister, you Bryan Boniface(for the years I gave you),you the guys that used to call me all the time and flirt, declaring your love, you the so call friends that were up to go out only to be seen with me, the lists of those flirts and "friends"is long , no point in naming all of them they know all who they are.

Destiny will take care of it all.........
I aam at least free from a pathetic society that you help to create.
I have seen the light, now I just have to follow it.That is Libertate

What should be the real LIBERTATE?
Is it an Utopie! To believe that a true liberation is in todays times needed?
Have we really lost it?
Have we lost all morality that made us supposably to be this special race of human beings!
This all world needs a new Che,better why should we have some leader to be this Che? Are we not special enough to realise by ourselves right from wrong, good from bad? Do we not have in ourselves the spirit to be our own Che?

Free spirits, free from ties, free from a nonsense society,free from politics, free from religion free from economics free from the stupidity we have become, free like LIBERTATE should be!